I know Newgrounds is not a place to ask for opinions or such for this matter, but I have tried to gather people's opinions and advice from different places or people and I haven't gotten much from it, so I decided to turn to Newgrounds. Perhaps someone has some hidden knowledge out there that might help me in some way.

Before I tell the story, I should probably mention a few things that have happened to me so that you will understand a bit about myself or mindset. I have had some very bad experiences with guys. I have been used many times (because of my kind, giving and unselfish personality) and have had things forced on me. I'm able to talk about it now, but it's still a bit hard to get it out. Also, all of my "best friends" all turned around and stabbed me in the back. It is sad what girls will do when guys are involved. I guess that makes them out to be not true friends in the first place, but it is hurtful since I have been nothing but kind to these people and I did not do anything to cause what happened in their little situations.

Anyway, there's a little bit about myself and maybe a factor as to why I have some of these problems.

Here is the story.

I have had insomnia for years. Every single night I have horrible, grotesque, extremely detailed nightmares that someone is trying to kill me/rape me or is killing others and/or doing other things I would rather not talk about. I constantly wake up crying or legitimately scared all the time. I cannot sleep much at all and I hate sleeping because of it. It has really taken a toll on me physically and I am getting very sick. I had to quit my job because I just cannot manage working with my health issues. (I'm already sickly, but not being able to sleep is making my health problems much worse. Especially for my heart.) I don't know what to do. My body does not do well with prescriptions or drugs due to taking them so much when I was younger. Does anyone have any recommendations or advice as to what I can do to help with this problem? It would be so much appreciated. :( Thank you. <3

P.S. Here is a new photo from my latest photoshoot.
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